Chapter 7
The mark on her cheek felt like a brand. Long after the paint had dried and she'd scrubbed her skin raw in the bathroom, she could still feel the phantom pressure of his thumb, the sear of his approval. We can begin. The words were a promise and a threat that coiled in her stomach throughout the long, silent day.
Irina brought meals. Lysander appeared once to silently restock the turpentine. The studio door remained unlocked. The freedom was its own prison. Every time she picked up a brush, she felt his eyes on her, even though he was gone from the penthouse. He had left before dawn, a quiet flurry of controlled energy by the front door.
She tried to paint. She stared at the canvas with its violent new addition—his crimson gash through her heart. She couldn't work on it. It was no longer hers. It was a collaboration she hadn't consented to. A testament to his violation.
Frustrated, she turned to a new, smaller canvas. She would paint something he couldn't touch. Something from before. She closed her eyes, trying to conjure the warm, cluttered comfort of the family restaurant's kitchen—the gleam of copper pots her nonna had brought from Sicily, the dusty bottle of Chianti on the shelf that was only for show, the faint, ghostly outline of her mother's face as she laughed, flour dusting her apron.
But her hand betrayed her. The lines came out too sharp, the shadows too deep. The warmth wouldn't come. The memory was fading, stained by the present. The golden light of the kitchen morphed into the cold, ambient glow of the penthouse. The pots looked like sterile surgical instruments. The canvas looked cold and empty. A tomb for a ghost.
She threw the brush down in disgust, the clatter echoing in the silent room. She was losing it. Losing herself. He was erasing her, stroke by calculated stroke. The panic she had held at bay since the phone call with Marco began to rise again, a cold tide in her veins. What was happening to her? Was this what he wanted? To hollow her out until only a shell remained, ready to be filled with whatever he desired?
The light was fading from the sky when she heard the front door open. Her entire body went rigid. She hadn't realized she'd been listening for it, every nerve ending tuned to the sound of his return.
Footsteps, firm and sure, crossed the living room. They didn't head toward his study or his bedroom. They came down the hall. Toward her.
She braced herself, her back to the door, staring resolutely at her failed painting of the kitchen.
He didn't speak immediately. He stood in the doorway, a presence she felt in the sudden chill on her skin, the shift in the air pressure.
"You've been busy," his voice came, low and even.
She didn't turn. "No."
She heard him step into the room. He came to stand behind her, not touching, but so close she could feel the warmth of his body through her thin shirt. He was looking over her shoulder at the sad, cold little painting.
"Nostalgia is a weakness, Elara," he said, his tone conversational, as if discussing the weather. "A futile attempt to live in a past that is already dead. It has no place here."
The casual dismissal of her life, her family, her history, was a slap. It severed the last taut thread of her control. She spun around to face him, anger finally overriding her fear. "It's my past. It's who I am."
His eyes glinted, a predator pleased to see a spark of fight. "It's who you were," he corrected softly. "Who you are is being decided right now. In this room." His gaze flicked to the storm canvas, to his red mark upon it. "That is a more honest portrait."
He was still in his suit, but he'd loosened his tie. He looked tired, but the intensity was undimmed. He'd been out in his world, doing whatever men like him did, and he'd come back here. To her.
"Why do you care?" she demanded, the question bursting from her. "Why does it matter what I paint? Why give me this?" She gestured wildly at the room. "Is this some kind of game to you? A psychological experiment? See how the caged bird sings?"
"Everything is a game, myshka," he said, a dark smile playing on his lips. "The only difference is whether you choose to play or be played." He took a step closer, forcing her to tilt her head back to maintain her defiant glare. "I care because I'm invested. I want to see what my collateral is truly worth. And so far..." His eyes traveled over her face, down to her paint-stained hands, and back up. "...I find myself increasingly intrigued."
He reached out, and before she could react, he took her hand in his. His grip was firm, his skin warm against hers. He turned her hand over, exposing her palm, tracing the line of a blue paint stain with the tip of his finger. The touch was intimate, proprietary, and it sent a shocking jolt straight through her core. It was a scientist's touch, a collector's touch. It made her feel like a specimen, and yet her traitorous skin heated under his.
"You're trying to hold on to a ghost," he murmured, his eyes on their joined hands. "It's a waste of this." He looked up, his gaze capturing hers. "This fire. This talent. You could create something real. Something powerful. Instead, you cling to sentiment."
"It's not sentiment. It's me," she argued, but her voice was weaker, the sensation of his finger on her palm scattering her thoughts.
"No," he said, his voice dropping to a hypnotic whisper. He entwined his fingers with hers, his grip tightening just enough to feel like a shackle. "This is you. Right now. This anger. This fear. This..." He brought their joined hands up, pressing her paint-stained palm flat against his chest, over his heart. She could feel the solid, steady beat of it through his shirt, a terrifying rhythm that seemed to sync with her own frantic pulse. "...this connection to what is real. To what is present. To me."
She tried to pull her hand away, but he held it fast, his heart thundering under her palm. The intimacy of the gesture was overwhelming. She was touching the very core of the monster, and it was just a heartbeat, human and vulnerable and terrifyingly strong.
"Let go of the dead, Elara," he commanded, his eyes burning into hers. "The past can't protect you. I can." He leaned in closer, his breath ghosting across her lips, his gaze dropping to her mouth. "I'm the only thing that can."
For a heart-stopping moment, she thought he would kiss her. The air crackled with the tension of it. Her lips parted, a traitorous, unwelcome thrill shooting through her, a confusing mix of dread and a deep, primal curiosity. What would it be like, to be kissed by a man who held the power of life and death in his hands? To taste the danger on his lips?
But he didn't.
He released her hand and took a step back, the moment shattering. The imprint of his heartbeat lingered on her palm like a burn.
"Dinner is in one hour," he said, his voice back to its cool, controlled normalcy, as if the last few moments had never happened. "I expect you to be there."
He turned and walked out, leaving her standing in the middle of the studio, her hand still tingling, her heart racing, her entire world tilted off its axis.
He wasn't just erasing her past.
He was offering himself as the foundation for her future. A dark, treacherous, powerful foundation. And as she looked down at her hand, still feeling the echo of his heart, the most terrifying part was the tiny, hidden part of her that was tempted to build on it. The part that was tired of being afraid. The part that was starting to see the terrifying allure of the dark.