Chapter 3

"You need to get out of this house," Sarah announced, barging through my parents' front door without knocking—a privilege earned through twenty years of friendship. She found me in the kitchen, still in my pajamas at two in the afternoon, staring at the divorce papers that had been finalized three months ago.

"I'm fine here," I mumbled, not looking up from my cold coffee.

"No, you're not." Sarah pulled out a chair and sat down with the determination of someone staging an intervention. "Charlie's at school, your parents are worried sick, and you've been hiding in this house like some tragic Victorian widow."

I finally met her eyes, seeing my own reflection in her concerned gaze—hollow cheeks, unwashed hair, the ghost of who I used to be. "I'm not hiding. I'm healing."

"Bullshit." Sarah slapped an envelope on the table between us. "The Eastside High reunion is next Saturday. We're going."

My stomach dropped. "Sarah, no. I can't face all those people, not after—"

"After what? After discovering your husband was a cheating bastard? Half our class is divorced by now, Penny. You're not some cautionary tale." She leaned forward, her voice softening. "You need to remember who you were before Owen. Before all of this."

The invitation sat between us like a challenge. Eastside High Class of 2005 - 20 Year Reunion. I could almost hear the whispers already—*Poor Penny Mitchell, divorced and living with her parents again.*

"I don't even have anything to wear," I said weakly.

"That's what shopping is for." Sarah's smile was triumphant. "We're going, and you're going to remember that you're more than just Owen Campbell's discarded wife."

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The Fairmont Olympic Hotel's ballroom buzzed with the nervous energy of middle-aged people trying to recapture their youth. I smoothed my black dress—simple, elegant, armor disguised as fashion—and scanned the crowd of vaguely familiar faces.

"Penny Mitchell!" A woman with perfectly styled blonde hair rushed toward me, arms outstretched. It took me a moment to recognize Jenny Walsh, our former class president. "Oh my god, you look exactly the same!"

I doubted that was true, but I smiled and accepted her hug. "Jenny, it's so good to see you."

"I heard about the divorce," she whispered, her expression shifting to practiced sympathy. "I'm so sorry. But honestly, good for you. Owen Campbell was always a little too smooth for his own good."

Before I could respond, Jenny's attention shifted to something behind me. Her face went pale, and she gripped my arm. "Oh. Oh no."

I turned, following her gaze across the crowded room, and my breath caught in my throat.

Cillian White stood near the bar, a glass of wine in his hand, looking older and more serious than the boy who'd once kissed me under the bleachers. His dark hair was shorter now, touched with silver at the temples, and there were lines around his eyes that spoke of experiences I knew nothing about. He wore a simple navy suit that emphasized his lean frame, but there was something different about the way he stood—a careful stillness that hadn't been there in high school.

Our eyes met across the room, and the noise of the reunion faded to a distant hum. Twenty years collapsed into nothing, and I was seventeen again, breathless and dizzy from the intensity of his gaze.

Then someone bumped into me, breaking the spell, and the present came rushing back. Conversations resumed around us, but I could feel the weight of curious stares from classmates who remembered our story—the golden couple who'd burned out spectacularly before graduation.

"Maybe we should go," Sarah murmured beside me, but I was already moving.

I made it halfway across the room before my courage wavered. What was I supposed to say? *Hi, remember me? The girl whose heart you broke before disappearing forever?*

But Cillian was watching me approach, and there was something in his expression—not the cold indifference I'd expected, but a kind of resigned sadness that made my chest ache.

"Penny." My name sounded different in his voice, rougher somehow, like he hadn't said it in years.

"Cillian." I stopped a careful distance away, close enough to see the faint scar above his left eyebrow that I didn't remember. "I didn't know you'd be here."

"I almost didn't come." He took a sip of wine, his hand steady despite the tension radiating from his shoulders. "How are you?"

The question hung between us, loaded with everything we couldn't say. *How am I? Divorced, broken, living with my parents at thirty-eight. How do you think I am?*

"I'm fine," I lied. "You?"

"Fine." His smile was barely there, a ghost of the grins that used to light up entire rooms.

We stood in awkward silence while our classmates swirled around us, the weight of our shared history pressing down like a physical thing. I noticed he shifted his weight slightly, favoring his right leg, and wondered what story lay behind that small tell.

"The balcony's quieter," he said suddenly, nodding toward the glass doors that led outside.

I followed him through the crowd, hyperaware of the curious glances and whispered conversations that trailed in our wake. The cool Seattle air hit my heated cheeks as we stepped onto the hotel balcony, the city lights stretching out below us like scattered stars.

"So," Cillian said, leaning against the railing with careful precision. "Twenty years."

"Twenty years," I echoed, wrapping my arms around myself against the chill. "You look good."

It was true, despite the new lines and the silver in his hair. He looked like a man who'd lived, who'd seen things and made peace with them. I envied him that composure.

"You too." His voice was quiet, almost lost in the night air. "I heard about your divorce. I'm sorry."

The words hit harder than they should have, maybe because they came from him. "How did you—?"

"Small town, even when it's not so small anymore." He stared out at the city, his profile sharp against the darkness. "Charlie's seven now?"

My breath caught. "You know about Charlie?"

"I know a lot of things." Something flickered across his face, too quick for me to interpret. "He's a good kid."

The certainty in his voice sent a chill down my spine that had nothing to do with the weather. "How would you know that?"

Cillian turned to look at me then, and in his eyes I saw shadows of secrets I couldn't begin to fathom. "Maybe we should talk about something else."

"No." The word came out sharper than I intended. "We've spent twenty years not talking about things. I think we've earned the right to some honesty."

He was quiet for so long I thought he might not answer. When he finally spoke, his voice was barely above a whisper.

"Some truths are harder to bear than silence, Penny."

The way he said my name—like a prayer, like an apology—made my heart clench with a pain I'd thought I'd buried long ago. Whatever had driven him away all those years ago, whatever had kept him away, it lived in the space between us now, as real and insurmountable as ever.