Chapter 3
I racked my brain over it, but no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't make sense of it.
Eventually, I just let it go.
After being let down so many times, all that disappointment finally woke me up.
I took a deep breath and made up my mind.
I pulled out my birth certificate and family records from my bag and flipped to the page with my name on it.
There it was, printed in cold, bureaucratic text: "Second Daughter," like I was just an afterthought, someone who didn't really matter.
I stared at it for a long time, then zipped up my backpack, grabbed my rental contract and proof of residency, and headed to the government office.
When the new document was handed to me, my heart skipped a beat.
No Charlotte. No Mom and Dad. Just my name.
Just me, only Emily Grant.
It was mine, and mine alone.
That afternoon, I stopped by the passport office on my way.
I had all the paperwork I needed.
I waited in line by myself, got my photo taken alone, and paid the fee on my own. This time, everything went smoothly.
In the days that followed, I aced my job interview and landed a full-time position.
Bit by bit, my life started to fall into place.
The air was thick with the scent of freedom.
A week later, just when I thought things were finally settling down, Mom blew up the family group chat with dozens of voice messages.
That afternoon, the family group chat, which had been quiet for ages, suddenly went wild.
I opened it up, and the first thing I saw was Mom's voice messages, one after another, each one dragging on forever.
Mixed in was a flood of photos of Charlotte.
Dad and Mom flanked her on either side, both grinning like crazy.
It was the perfect picture of a happy family of three.
Mom: [Hey, Sophia, I checked out that skincare product you wanted. They had it at the counter, so I bought it right away. Guaranteed authentic!]
Mom: [Tom, you love red wine, right? I tried some at the winery here, and it's really good. I picked up two bottles of a great vintage for you. We'll share them when we get back.]
Mom: [Julia, just let me know what kind of snacks your little one likes. I'm heading to the local market this afternoon, so I'll pick some up for him.]
And then I heard Charlotte chime in, all sweet and playful.
Charlotte: [Auntie Sophia, I picked out a silk scarf for you. The color really suits you.]
From start to finish, every voice message was buzzing with excitement.
Each one was packed with hype about coming home, with everyone showing off all the stuff they'd bought for the family.
Charlotte was basically flexing her excitement for everyone to see.
There were over fifty messages in total.
She greeted every single relative in the group, checking in on everyone in the family.
But not a single one was for me.
Not even one.
Not even a token mention, like a casual tag in the group chat: "Emily, want anything from the local market?"
"Emily, want anything from the local market?"
Not even that.
I was zoning out, staring at my phone, when it suddenly buzzed with a new message.
It was my cousin Linda, who had no clue what was going on, messaging me in a private chat.
Linda: [Emily, I noticed you're not in any of the photos. Didn't you go on the trip with them?]
I replied calmly: [I didn't go.]
Linda must have been shocked, because she immediately bombarded me with a string of question marks.
Linda: [Wait, what? Why? The whole family went, so why were you the only one left out? Your mom is being so obvious about playing favorites. You're her daughter too. How can they treat you like this? Seriously, that's so unfair!]
I didn't reply to Linda's questions.
Two years ago, I would have cried at that kind of sympathy.
A year ago, I would have been so upset I couldn't sleep all night.
But now, I just felt completely calm inside.
After that, I closed the chat with Linda.
I left the family group chat and deleted it.
At last, the world was finally silent.
*****
Their flight was scheduled to land at 3:40 in the afternoon.
I remembered the exact time not because I was excited for them to come back, but because I was going to be there, too.
Mom called me just as my taxi pulled up to the departures terminal.
As soon as I picked up, that familiar, bossy tone hit me right away.
She snapped, "Emily, drop everything and deep-clean the house from top to bottom, right this second. And make sure Charlotte's room gets special treatment. Swap out all her sheets for the Egyptian cotton set, and vacuum that carpet three times, minimum."
"Oh, and the fridge is bare," Mom continued, her voice rising. "Hit Whole Foods and grab some fresh seafood and filet mignon. We want a real dinner tonight after the flight.
"And make sure the water heater is cranked up. We'll be exhausted from traveling and want to shower the second we walk in."
After rattling off all those orders, she tacked on one final demand. "Alright, at three o'clock, get an UberXL to the airport and meet us at baggage claim. We've got a mountain of luggage, so you're helping us haul it. Got it?"
I looked up at the clear blue sky outside the airport and said, "Mom."
Mom sounded annoyed. "What now? Don't drag your feet."
"I'm not going," I said.
Mom snapped, "What did you just say? You're not coming? Emily, are you looking for trouble? We've been running ourselves ragged for two weeks, and you can't even help out a little? Do you have any idea how much Charlotte's been through?"
I cut her off. "I said, I'm not going."
She threatened, "Emily, if you don't show up at the airport today, don't bother coming home ever again. You hear me—"
I hung up on her.
Then I opened my contacts.
I blocked Mom, Dad, and Charlotte, my three pinned contacts, one by one.
Then I blocked and deleted them from every other social app too.
After I finished, I took a deep breath, grabbed my suitcase, and strode toward the international departures security checkpoint.
As the plane started taxiing, I glanced down at my watch.
It was 3:50 PM.
By now, their flight should have landed.
The same airport, the same runway.
Their plane had just landed.
And mine was just taking off.
We passed each other in the air.
For more than twenty years, I stood humbly in their shadow, always hoping they'd notice me.
I've waited countless times for them to turn around and see me.
From now on, I would never wait again.