Chapter 5

I sobbed, "He's always yelling at me. Nothing I do satisfies him. When he said he was going to race, I was scared he'd die, so I tried to make the car safer.

"When he said he wanted to sell the house, I was scared we'd lose our home, so I tried to protect him.

"He said what I made was poison, but I was only trying to help him recover. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. Everything I do is wrong. I'm so scared."

My sobs, mixed with Joel's furious yelling on the recorder, made me look…