Chapter 1

The day I found out I was pregnant, another child called my husband Daddy.

She was sitting in Ethan's lap.

And he was reading her the story we'd written for the baby we lost.

I stopped outside the elementary school auditorium, one hand still inside my coat pocket, wrapped around the eight-week ultrasound photo.

Three hours earlier, my doctor had smiled at me.

"Everything looks good, Mrs. Bennett."

After six years, I had finally been given the news Ethan and I had stopped allowing ourselves to hope for.

I had planned to surprise him tonight.

He'd told me he was in the next city for a partners' meeting, so I stopped by the elementary school first to drop off the books I'd promised for its family reading night.

I was halfway down the corridor when I heard his voice.

"No matter how far the little comet traveled, home would always recognize its light."

I froze.

Those were my words.

Six years ago, after I lost our first baby, I had written them on cheap yellow paper because I couldn't sleep.

Ethan had sat beside me through those nights.

Sometimes he held my hand.

Sometimes he cried with me.

When I couldn't write anymore, he finished sentences for me.

We called the story The Little Comet Who Found Home.

No publisher had ever seen it.

No one outside our marriage even knew it existed.

I pushed the auditorium door open an inch.

Ethan sat beneath the stage lights with a little girl curled comfortably against his chest.

She looked about five.

"Daddy," she chirped, tugging happily at his sleeve. "You skipped the part where the comet eats space stardust."

Ethan laughed.

"Ah, my mistake, Sophie. Let Daddy read it again."

He turned the page and started again.

The little girl already knew where he had made the mistake.

This wasn't the first time he'd read the story to her.

Beside the stage stood Claire Lawson.

I knew Claire.

She had worked with Ethan years ago, before leaving his investment firm.

I hadn't seen her in a long time.

A teacher stopped beside her and smiled toward the stage.

"Sophie is lucky," she said. "Mr. Bennett hasn't missed a single family reading night since she started preschool."

Claire's smile barely changed.

"He never misses anything important to her."

Preschool. Three years.

My fingers tightened around the ultrasound photo.

The little girl had called my husband Daddy as naturally as if she'd been saying it all her life.

And Claire had answered for him as if this were an ordinary family evening.

I stepped back before anyone could see me.

I walked around the corner, took out my phone, and called my husband.

Through the narrow glass panel in the auditorium door, I watched him look down at his screen.

His expression changed immediately.

He handed Sophie to Claire and walked away from the stage.

"Hi, sweetheart." The warmth in his voice nearly hurt more than what I'd just seen.

"Ethan," I said. "Where are you?"

"Still in the conference room."

He didn't hesitate.

"We're probably going to be another few hours. The partners can't agree on the final numbers."

I looked through the glass.

He was less than thirty feet away.

"You sound strange," he added. "Are you okay?"

He was worried about me. I could hear it in the careful cadence of his breath. He truly cared.

"I'm fine," I whispered, staring right at him through the dim light. "Just finished work. Miss you."

His voice softened.

"I'll come home as soon as I can. Wait for me, okay?"

Behind him, Sophie ran to the edge of the stage and waved.

Ethan smiled at her before turning away.

Then he said into the phone,"I love you, Nora."

I looked down at the ultrasound photo in my hand.

"Me too," I said, and ended the call.

I walked out of the school. My fingers clutched the visitor badge the school had given me earlier:Nora Bennett.Family Reading Night.7:42 PM.

Then I called another number.

"Ruth?" I said when the line connected.

"The apartment upstairs," I said, feeling a cold, heavy calm settle over my bones. "Is it still empty?"

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Midnight had long passed by the time Ethan walked through our front door.

I was sitting at the kitchen island in the dark.

"Nora?" Ethan dropped his briefcase instantly. He rushed across the room, his face pale with worry as he saw me sitting motionless in the dark. "What happened?"

He took my hands between his.

"They're freezing."

He crouched in front of me, studying my face.

For one horrible second, I remembered the man who had sat on a bathroom floor with me six years ago while I cried until I had nothing left.

That man was still here.

That was what made this impossible to understand.

Ethan touched the back of his hand to my forehead.

"Are you sick?"

"No."

"Did something happen at work?"

I shook my head.

He exhaled and pressed his lips against my knuckles.

"Come to bed."

He lifted me from the stool as if carrying me upstairs was the most natural thing in the world.

My husband had always been gentle with me.

Halfway out of the kitchen, the spare tablet on the counter lit up.

A notification flashed across the screen.

Ethan didn't see it.

I did.

1,825 completed bedtime sessions.

"Sleep," he whispered as he carried me upstairs. "I'm here."

I looked back at the glowing number until the kitchen disappeared from view.

He had never left me.

He had simply gone somewhere else every night.